I’m not sure if I’ve ever mentioned this on my blog before, maybe in passing, but I suffer from anxiety. Sometimes it’s just a little bit, something that goes away after a few deep breaths. But other times, it’s overwhelming. It leaves me with a pit in my stomach, shaky and nervous, and, coupled with my ADHD, completely unable to focus. At its worst, I get full-blown panic attacks.
There are a few different ways that I deal with my anxiety. Sometimes, as I mentioned above, a little deep breathing does the job. Other times, I will call my husband or mom (they can usually talk me down). Sometimes I have to take a Xanax if it’s really bad. But, I find that the absolute most calming things that I can do for myself when I feel like my world is spinning out of control are to recite positive affirmations, and pray.
Well, my anxiety got the best of me yesterday morning and I had one of those full-blown panic attacks. It was debilitating. I was driving, and I started hyperventilating and crying uncontrollably. I had to pull over – I couldn’t breathe, I was shaking and sobbing and I could barely see. I tried breathing deeply, it wasn’t working. But then I called my mom, who remained calm and told me to pray. I took her advice, and my body immediately calmed. Then I remembered this verse from the Bible:
My anxiety, more often than not, comes from my fear of not being in control. But being able to give up that control and let God (or the universe, or whatever you believe in) move forward with the plan that has already been set in place, is freeing. Whenever I read that verse from Psalm 56:3, I instantly relax.
I have to remember that there is a greater plan for me, and in my 30-something years on this earth, God has never failed me.
Come what may. Let the universe take its course.
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